At this particular moment, I probably should not be writing an entry because of what I call a current "severe" state of mind. Even though I will not be able to totally explain a "severe" state of mind because I made the term up, I do feel a great need to just complain and wallow for a minute in expressing this. Before I sink deeper into what can also be termed a 'self made pit of patheticness', I want to write about "nothing". "Nothing" could be considered "something" I suppose but i'll just call it patheticness. Pathetic nothingness is made more pathetic because it IS 'something' at the same time.
I am greatly blessed and therefore feel the incredible need to repay someone for these blessings. However, when one does not feel capable in fulfilling such a request to a self satisfying standard, then inevitably self-pity will follow. I believe everyone has felt similar inadequacies or inability at one time or another but for the perfectionist this can be an especially horrific situation. Thankfully it is only for a "moment in time".
1 comment:
I like this phrase that a friend would say..."This too shall pass."
:) You are a blessing!
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